Rishenn

Wow, I've been so inactive recently I'm amazed. Ugh, there's just really been no time for art at all I am ded :I

So, finally my Mid-Year Examinations are over! And.. I kinda screwed it all up. Aw man this year has been incredibly stressful. I have no idea how I've survived thus far. Study study study, and I'm still about to flung the entire thing. But I started drawing again for a while since for now I have at least at little time to.

But as it turns out MY DIGITAL ART IS DEAD ;u;

I started lining on my tablet, and I realised I'd forgotten everything. My lineart just came out terrifyingly ugly. Shame on me, sigh  

I kinda doubt I'll do many digital works for now, maybe at least I'll be able to post some traditional works but.. I don't even know anymore.

...Could this be some new art block?

Lol, just what am I doing writing a journal so late at night on a school day /shot

Just been watching this incredible concert - www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZVCdLi…
I could sob from the beauty of this haha

Watching it makes me want to rewatch all of Studio Ghibli's movies all over again, I'm definitely going to do that during the holidays 8D Wonder if I'll lapse into fanart again

Well I can confidently say, life has sucked a lot so far

When I chose which stream I wanted to go into, I never expected anything as stressful as this. Holy.

School has been awful so far, I'm lost in the endless whirl of homework and studying, it's mad. I've been unable to draw any digital art at all unfortunately, there's simply been no time. Doesn't help that my class is cleanly segregated into bunches of cliques. I really hoped for more friends this year but I haven't made more than a few. And even then I'm not sure if they're really my friends or not. My form teacher did try to talk to me recently and I answered all her questions, I didn't voice out any of my problems though. Sometimes it's better to keep things from blowing up.

On the other hand, I've taken solace in Art. Art really just takes away all my present worries and dumps them in a corner. Those 3 or 4 hours in Art are the only time I feel untroubled. Additionally, I have a couple of friends in Art now, it's a happy thing to be able to get rid of your problems for a while.

In the end, my problems don't really disappear and I find myself stressed again after Art.

I wonder if things will get any better, honestly. Please

Happy 15th Birthday, Chibi ;u;

I'd just like to say a few words of thanks haha

So, throughout the past year and the starting of this year, you've been an incredible mentor and teacher to look up to (PS, YOUR ART IS AMAZING AFL:KJAFSLKSF *ahem* back to the text). If I hadn't talked to you or met you I don't think that I would've ever picked up art again. Your words of guidance and encouragement (as well as hilarious typos and grammatical mistakes ) never failed to cheer me up. But above all you've been a crazy awesome friend , it's been really fun chatting, joking and drawing with you. Thanks so much for everything and I really hope you have a splendid birthday

And there you have it, as the title implies, school has once again started for me. Dammit

Which also means, I will be a lot less active and stuff. I miss the holidays so much ;u;

Anyway, school was pretty darn boring. I got into the class I wanted but I'm not so sure I like it that much. The people there are really dull and not really lively at all. Most of them just crowd together in their cliques and won't talk much. I was a bit (or really) disppointed with that. I had hoped my class would be better this year but I don't know anymore .__.

Also, they had a briefing for the new Art Students today (meee )
It mostly consisted of the teacher showing us a bunch of the older students work and explaining to us how art needs a lot of devotion and time. I do look forward to the art lessons and all, but art students are really intimidating. (The girls look evil O_O <and barely any  guys>) Gah, I'm starting to get badly paranoid :I This year, I really can't predict anything at all. I just hope badly that it turns out better

All I can do :C (I honestly hope I don't end up depressed or anything, crap)